CRAZY EX-GIRLFRIEND: 3.11 “Nathaniel and I Are Just Friends!”
I’m going to start this post the same way that Crazy Ex-Girlfriend started last Friday’s episode: by acknowledging the phenomenal voice of Michael Hyatt. I mean, wow. I’ve always been a fan of Hyatt’s “Dream Ghosts,” but in “This Session Is Going to Be Different” (video above), we really hear how talented she really is. Bravo.
Now on to the rest of the episode. When you think of show that might use a time jump, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend isn’t one that you’d naturally think of. But by adding such a gap in the series, they brilliantly showed how each character is (or isn’t) growing—emotionally or, in the case of Heather, physically.
The leap ahead is only eight months, much shorter than other jumps that other shows have taken. Usually we’re looking at years, anywhere from one to five. But in just over half a year time, we see a lot of change. Heather is still carrying Darryl’s baby and frustrated at having a “hobby” she can’t quit. She’s also still a manager at Home Base and has completed an entire makeover of the space. White Josh has gone off to do Habitat for Humanity and returned with a dog. Paula’s bestie Sunil has joined the firm—and the ranks of her slacker coworkers. And Valencia has gotten her business up and running while also starting a new relationship with former client Beth.
But for Rebecca, nothing much has changed. She’s still sleeping with Nathaniel, while he has a serious girlfriend. The point here is not to shake a finger at Rebecca, but to realize how long it can take to grow and change when you’re dealing with mental illness. It’s not a quick fix, and the show didn’t want to depict it falsely in that way. By jumping ahead, you can show how others have moved forward and adapted to change in their lives. Rebecca, not so much.
That’s not to say that Rebecca isn’t taking great strides forward. She’s much more self-aware. She’s recognized her habits and is actively trying to avoid them. But in all these ways that she has changed, one thing remains: She is still scared. She’s scared of what she can do to herself. And this comes out in a heartbreaking session with Dr. Akopian, where Rebecca admits that she doesn’t want to take her relationship to the next level with Nathaniel because she doesn’t want to die. She knows what she’s capable of if she feels abandoned, and the smallest thing can set her off. She’s afraid of taking the risk.
It’s absolutely heart wrenching, especially as you see the doubt in Rebecca’s eyes when Dr. Akopian tells her that she’s a loving person who deserves love. But finally, at least, Rebecca seems to have opened up honestly to Akops and heard what she had to say.
So we’re left with Rebecca standing outside of Nathaniel’s apartment, singing a reprise of “Face Your Fears,” trying to convince herself to take on love. Her rendition is so full of emotion, and you have to applaud Rachel Bloom for her performance. Every word seemed to carry such significance, and between this number and her scene in therapy, Bloom really didn’t hold back. It made for an especially powerful episode.
And as we know, in the end, fear takes over. She’s not ready. Of course, I was rooting for that happy ending, and it was especially sad, knowing all that Rebecca has gone through and hearing Nathaniel’s very honest words in their office just moments before.